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  “I’m not working for Lance Silver; I was set up. That marijuana was planted in my locker. I’m not under investigation. You talk to my boss; he’ll tell you.” Sam loomed in front of Jesse, and this time Marcie did step back.

  “I don’t need to talk to your boss to know the truth. But you need to know this, Derek’s going to spin his own tale on this and bypass the Feds. This is a different jurisdiction. Read between the lines my friend. Call your boss. Get him to pull you in. You need his help. He can make it go away. You know the Feds down here have always proven their ability to take down dirty cops in New Orleans. The tale Derek’s spinning, they’ll see it as it is. Corrupt and bad policing by a politically motivated captain who’s good at making an innocent man look guilty.” His frustrated words spewed. Any fool could see the common sense Jesse tried desperately to hammer into Sam.

  Sam hurried to his car and pulled open the door. “You haven’t seen us Jesse; I’ll call you later.”

  “Fuck Sam. You’re digging yourself in deeper. Cut her loose. You’re putting me in a tough spot. You know as well as I how serious this is. The drugs, especially this airport stuff, ever since 911 airport security’s jammed up tight. Didn’t you notice today, airport security’s at level orange? Come on, Sam. The possibility of a false passport and questions about what she transported. This is bad. You know this. This could get ugly, real quick. Use your head and think.”

  Sam slammed his door shut and stalked toward Jesse. “That’s exactly what I’m doing, and you know why. I got way too many eyes on me, all this speculation and a whole lot of questionable crap. No, I need handle this my way.”

  The potential of this snowballing into a nightmare was unavoidable. Jesse plainly cared deeply. Marcie could see how he fought to convince Sam to make a clean break and walk away. And he was right. He should leave her.

  “This is my fault, Sam. I don’t understand any of this. Or why you’ve been dragged into the middle of it. You were there for me and took me in. I’m grateful for it. I don’t know what to do. Maybe I should just go with Jesse. At least then, your name will be cleared. You don’t deserve to be treated this way.” Her voice shook and her eyes burned, and she wept deep inside needing to give him this out. At the same time, she prayed he wouldn’t take it. When had she begun to need him so?

  “Don’t play the martyr. That’s exactly what you don’t do down here. You can’t remember anything. Or do you suddenly remember? Which is it?” He crossed his solid arms, confronting her, attitude and all.

  “No, Sam I don’t. I wish I did. Then maybe we’d have our answers.”

  “Careful what you wish for Marcie, you may not want to know.”

  He had her there. She stuck out her jaw over the sting of his words. He was a crack shot, and he’d hit his mark.

  Jesse’s police scanner sizzled to life when a voice demanded his whereabouts. All three heads focused in on the dispatcher’s lilt as if she were a viper ready to strike.

  “Tell them you haven’t seen me. That I blew you off.” Sam took another step toward Jesse. His white shirt clung to his damp back showing off his well-sculpted muscles. “I know I’m asking a lot, but we go way back, and you know I’m not involved in this. You and I both know nothing in this investigation is being done by the book.” Jesse ground his teeth, beads of sweat popped out above his brow. He reached in the open window and switched off the radio.

  “Get going now. I haven’t seen ya. Just don’t forget a lot of these guys down here believe there’s something more. Remember, Sam. You’re the one who left.” His nostrils flared before he climbed in his sedan and fired it up.

  Sam leaned in Jesse’s open window. “One more thing. Find out where all this heat’s coming from and why now?”

  “The heat’s coming Sam, so’s the time to clear the past. You’ve put it off too long There’s one of your answers. You should have stayed and shown them you weren’t on the take. You made yourself look guilty when you took off and joined the Feds. To anyone who doesn’t know you, that’s how he sees it. You’re guilty; you run.”

  Chapter Eleven

  A storm brewed amid the lingering dust trailing Jesse’s sedan. Sam pulled onto the highway but went in the opposite direction. Toward the storm and heavy grey clouds rumbling in the distant sky.

  Sam needed another shower. He’d yet to acclimatize to being home. Each time he stepped outside, sweat glazed every inch of him. To make it worse, Jesse’s last words opened the congealed wound that hadn’t quite healed. Sam had to admit Jesse was right. To anyone else, his leaving town would appear as if he’d run, but that’s not why he left. Now every censure he’d brushed off whispered through his mind. Those icy stares at his back, each caustic hint anytime an investigation went sour. Did Sam slip up?

  What made it worse were the friends of friends and distant acquaintances within the NOPD. Even the Feds, who believed they knew the truth. But, in fact, each had been led on by nothing more than mere gossip, circumstantial evidence, and the fact Sam made an excellent scapegoat. All because he refused to stay after Elise died and clear his name.

  “Sam, what was Jesse talking about?”

  Trapped in his head, he stared through the dusty windshield, and for a moment, Sam forgot where he was. Tired and disillusioned. he didn’t want to answer so he ignored her and kept driving. Except after a few minutes, his conscience cut through his pity party. This wasn’t her fault. What a coward, unable to face her mirage of innocence that looked him square in the eye.

  He dropped one hand from the steering wheel and rested it on the stick shift. “Three years ago I joined the DEA task force and left New Orleans.”

  “So what did Jesse mean you made yourself look guilty?”

  He didn’t want to discuss his past, not with anyone. His last homicide investigation, the cocaine or marijuana he logged into evidence. A forged requisition in his name and the drugs vanished. The next painful day during the inquiry, his world shattered. Elise was killed. What followed were malicious accusations, one of them was he was on the take. All that turmoil packaged neatly in a past continuing to haunt him. He still wasn’t any clearer on what actually played out. Grief had a way of clouding your judgment and hiding the bigger picture. Who was motivated to set him up? He had to admit Jesse was partly right, he made himself look guilty when he packed a suitcase of essentials, and jumped on a plane to Seattle. But the entire truth for Sam wasn’t just vengeance, it was to escape the gut wrenching pain.

  “Someone forged my signature on a requisition and drugs disappeared. I was investigated and cleared. It was a bad forgery.” She furrowed her brows.

  “And they already suspected your wife doing the same thing with the ATF? No, I can see that wouldn’t look good. I can also see why being with me is making it really bad for you.”

  He couldn’t respond honestly. This situation wasn’t entirely her making. He walked away from too many things. Why was it up to him to clear his name? But he already knew the answer. It’s how the world ticked. Guilty until proven innocent.

  Trees thickened both sides of the busy highway as Sam drove deeper into bayou country.

  “Sam, where are we going?”

  His eyes remained glued to the road. “Some place where we can lay low for a bit, just until I can figure some things out. You’ll be safe.”

  Sam drove cautiously, not too fast to be pulled over and not too slow to attract attention. Alert and silent, he continued to glance in the rearview mirror. His full lips pursed in a way that gave nothing away.

  * * * *

  A road sign boasted Grande Isle right before they crossed over the wide-open Caminada Bridge. She shivered in the damp heat, hit by an unexplainable sense of déjà vu along with a strange yet familiar sense of coming home.

  They drove through downtown Grand Isle, past a few eating establishments and gas stations. When Sam turned down a narrow winding road guiding them to a middle section of the island, Marcie was swept up in the majestic beauty of old towering, w
indswept oak trees and oleanders that seemed to grow at each rustic Creole cottage.

  Then out of nowhere, they past downed trees and vacant lots that looked more like a war zone, piles of busted wood and rotted foundations.

  Sam slowed and turned right down a long dirt driveway surrounded by massive oaks leading up to an old clapboard cottage, completely secluded. He parked in front of old, weathered plank steps that led up to a screened-in front porch. Sam climbed out of the Camaro and shoved the door closed. Holding his head high, he walked around the front of the car. He pulled in his broad shoulders, deep in thought and contemplation. Sam opened her door and held out his hand. He was an enigma. And she couldn’t understand the jerk in her belly and why her heart flipped by such a simple gesture.

  A selfconscious wave passed over her. She felt sticky, dirty and just plain gross. She longed for a bath filled with scented lavender oil, surrounded by white candles. The peaceful thought faded instantly when she stood in front of the tiny run down cottage with boarded up windows. Sam pressed his hand into the small of her back, urging her up the rickety steps to the screen door.

  “I haven’t been back in a while. As you can see, I’m one of the lucky ones. Not much damage to mine after Katrina swept through. Many places were condemned, abandoned or torn down. No way to save them; we passed those along the coast, some inland too.”

  Marcie ducked under his arm and stepped cautiously across a creaky unpainted porch. Sam wasn’t as careful. He squeezed around Marcie and tried to open the heavy oak door, but a secured lock held. For some reason, he seemed satisfied and bent over with a pick, inserting a silver prong in the lock. He had a strong focus. His tongue slipped out the side of his mouth. The lock clicked. Sam grinned.

  “Forgot my key, if you recall, we left in a hurry. Viola, in you go, madam.” He pushed open the door and gestured her in with the sweep of his hand.

  This sparse cottage consisted of furnishings from the 60’s, maybe earlier. Marcie walked into a tiny square box style kitchen, with a small banged up second hand dining table and two rickety wood chairs shoved against the wall behind the door.

  Sam removed plywood from each window, allowing the late day sun to infiltrate this quaint cottage. Against the back wall of the rustic kitchen, a set of steep stairs led up to a door. Marcie wandered up the narrow stairs. Something about the attic urged her to open the door. So she turned the small ivory doorknob, but nothing happened. A turn of the century brass lock appeared implanted in the wood frame above the doorknob. She couldn’t tell if it was stuck or locked.

  “You got a key to open this door?”

  “What are you doing up there?” Sam stood at the bottom of the stairs.

  “I’m curious, Sam. What’s up here?”

  “I don’t know, probably a bunch of junk.” He turned his back, clearly not interested, and pulled open the ancient rounded fridge door. A pungent stench quickly filled the room. Sam gagged.

  Marcie trotted down the stairs, waving her hand in the air to disperse the offensive odor.

  “Shit, that stupid ass.”

  Her stomach heaved, so she breathed through her mouth.

  “I pay a guy to look after the place lives in Jefferson Parish. Comes out here every now and then to fish, hang out. Mainly to get away from his wife. He left his food.”

  Sam let out a restless sigh. “I need to go to the store, I’m hungry.” He shoved the fridge door closed. “Do you think you’ll be okay till I get back?”

  “I’ll be just fine, go on now.” Marcie smiled until she realized he expected her to clean the fridge. Her smile faded.

  Sam started to say something and then stopped, while he walked across the old hardwood floor straight toward her. “Come here. I need you to stay out of sight. Don’t go out and keep the door closed. Bolt it after I leave and don’t open it for anyone. Not until you hear my voice. Understand?”

  “Yes sir.” Strong working man hands touched her shoulders and slid down her bare arms before he turned away.

  “I’ll try to hurry.”

  Marcie followed, still tingling from his touch. After she bolted the door, she leaned her back against the rough wood listening to the Camaro’s rumble as he revved the engine and drove away. She wondered for a moment where his head was. He’d been so angry earlier. He blamed her for this mess. Yet here he is touching her in such a possessive way. He cares for you.

  She closed her eyes to block out the voice, letting go a sigh while she wandered back to the steep stairs. Something about that door urged her to find a way in. She felt the words in her head more than she heard them. Up here, open the door. She glanced behind her, downright spooked. She heard nothing now, but when she peeked at that attic door, she knew she needed to find a way in.

  There were three tiny drawers in the bare bones kitchen. Marcie yanked open each one, rummaging through old utensils and junk until she found a long metal prong. “A chicken skewer, that’ll work.” She bounded up the rough wooden steps. “Okay, so this is easy right?” She turned the glass knob and pressed the metal prong in the lock and jiggled. Then somehow she fumbled her grip and stabbed herself with the pointy skewer in the soft pad at the base of her thumb. The shiny metal landed with a clang and clattered down three stairs. “Damn, damn, shit that hurts.” She cradled her throbbing hand, while blood oozed out of a small round puncture, splattering the top step. Her energy zapped; she picked up the skewer and hunkered down the stairs where she rinsed her burning wound under a huge single tap in the oversized porcelain sink.

  “Now how am I supposed to open the door?”

  * * * *

  Sam knocked and waited with a plastic bag filled with dinner and groceries. Marcie’s soft padded footsteps approached. The bolt clanked when she slid it open. Sam sniffed at the fragrant tang of vinegar. The fridge door was propped open by a white plastic jug. She’d been busy.

  “What did you do with all the crap in the fridge?”

  She walked ahead of him and knelt down on her bare knees, picking up a rag on the bottom shelf, sticking her head in the rounded fridge. He couldn’t help appreciating the wiggle of her bottom and the way it made a simple pair of shorts drive him to the point he wanted to give her derriere an intimate and friendly squeeze. “I threw all of it in a garbage bag I found in the cupboard and dumped it in the can around back.”

  His blood heated as he set down the groceries on the small wooden table. “Dammit Marcie, what’d I tell you? Didn’t I say stay out of sight; don’t open the door to anyone?”

  She froze, tossing the silky mane of endless hair tumbling over her shoulders and then stood up blinking. She clutched a pathetic checkered rag and tilted her chin in a determined way. Keeping her words even and very matter of fact. “But I didn’t open the door to anyone, and I made sure no one saw me. I was careful. I looked around both ways before I went out. There was no one around.”

  He wanted to throw his hands up and yell, but instead he stomped to the door, jerked it open, flinging the screen door wide until it smacked the outside wall with an echoing thud, rocking ancient, rusty hinges. Did he feel better? No.

  Chapter Twelve

  The wind whipped around his dark tousled hair. The familiar man was filled with a powerful hate as he gripped the steering wheel of a rusty brown mustang convertible. In a flash, the scene changed to a man and a woman standing at the edge of a steep mountain road with a bare fir tree and unbarricaded cliff beside them. The tall blonde man had his arm around the despairing, curvy woman. Their heads were lowered, standing before a simple cross. Jerome flashed in front of her. Arms crossed over his broad chest, his golden hair whipping in the wind. “Go to the attic Marcie, you’ll find some answers there.”

  Marcie bolted upright. Beads of sweat danced over her chilled skin. Her breath shook, and she struggled in the surrounding darkness to shake loose the dreamlike state—that memory. And Jerome, Jesus what was he trying to show her?

  A faint light illuminated a yellow rectangle into the roo
m from the open door. Marcie crept out of bed wearing just her long beige shirt. She could hear Sam talking. So she followed his deep voice to where he stood by the dim frame window, his cell phone pressed to his ear, listening.

  He disconnected without turning around and slipped the phone in his blue jeans back pocket. He didn’t acknowledge her or turn around. He leaned his arm upon the chipped window frame, staring out into the darkness. “What’re you doing up?”

  Obviously, he’d heard her. She should have realized she couldn’t sneak up on him. His words were clipped. He must still be mad.

  Dinner had been tense, quiet and lonely. The hamburgers tasted like sawdust when she tried to swallow past the lump in her throat. He had so many quirks in his personality. Sam pulled into himself when he was irritated, as if he replayed whatever bothered him, over and over in his mind.

  His response to anything she asked had been either a grunt or a curt one-word answer. Her traitorous thoughts shifted, maybe he couldn’t stand being in the same room with her—maybe he had enough and questioned his wisdom of helping a virtual stranger. This must be the end—yes; he’d turn her in and walk away. At dinner, she’d been unable to bear that thought, so she excused herself, pushing her full plate away, saying she was tired and escaped to the only bedroom. She didn’t know how long she lay in bed with a burning ache ripping a hole in her heart before finally drifting off. Now all she wanted to do was cry as she stood before Sam in a skimpy shirt with bare legs in this tiny, cluttered sitting room connected to the kitchen.

  “Are you turning me in?” Marcie didn’t mean to say it aloud.

  “Dammit Marcie, is that what you thought?” He snapped, jamming his fingers through his wavy hair. “You don’t get it, do you?” He paced and then turned toward her, hesitating a second before closing the gap between them. He cradled her shoulders with his large firm hands. “Look at me. You can’t be taking chances like you did. When I say stay in, don’t open the door to anyone. That means don’t take the stinking garbage out, nothing!”